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Everyone has a light and a dark side, I find, and I am no exception. If you’re
looking for all the answers, I do not have them, I’m afraid. If you’re looking for
someone who is happy all the time, I am not, but nor am I always shrouded in darkness.
I’m just a girl, and as long as you don’t ask more of me than you would give of
yourself, then we will be just fine. The opinions expressed in this little corner of
my world are mine and I would thank you to respect that. I do not demand that
you agree with, or even like me, and ask you to extend me the same courtesy. What you
see is what you get… unless you take the time to look behind this mask. We all have
them, and this one is mine.
I’ll be honest, I have the rather stereotypical poetic tendency of falling into month
long binges of unhappy ranting. A by product of being bi-polar, I’m afraid. So, if
you’re surprised when I don’t seem like the most cheery person on the face of the
planet, do not say that you were not warned. I am a lover of dark literature and
poetry, thus is will come a no surprise that I am into the gothic and punk
subcultures. When I fall, I fall hard, and landing is never easy.
On the reverse, when I am happy, I am blissful. I truly do try and see the good in
most, or all, people with whom I come into contact. I believe in the inherent good in
man, and always try and believe that people are as beautiful as they have the
potential to be. After all, we only live this life once, no matter what happens, or
where we go, after. I try to be a good friend, even if I’m not all that skilled at
it, and I am very protective of those I love. It's not always easy, but few things in
life of value are, I find. When I love, I love completely, as I’m something of an
emotional extremeist.
If I had to sum up my life philosophy in one phrase it would have to be, "To
everything there is season and a purpose under Heaven." I believe strongly that
all things happen for a reason and with purpose, all in their proper time. Just
because I can't see the purpose does not mean that it is not there. I am a person of
faith, but would never go so far as to say of religion. I believe that everyone must
make their own way and follow what path seems best for them. It is their life, after
all.
All in all, I am a simple person who enjoys the company of those I love, a good book, and a beautiful afternoon. I ask very little from life other than to be loved, to find peace, and the hope that just maybe I might be able to make the world a more beautiful place in which to live.
I've moved around a lot in recent years, but seem to have settled back hear my home town of Brighton, Michigan. It's kind of strange to be back home. There were times as I kid when all I wanted was to get as far away from this place as possible. Now, I realize that this was not such a bad place to have grown up, and I find myself glad to be back in the place I know so very well. There's something to be said about the familiar, that's for sure.
I enjoy a wide range of hobbies which include: table top gaming, the 'Game of Thrones' CCG, graphic design, photography, live action role playing, celtic knotwork, and sleeping. Yes, I consider sleep a hobby. *^_^* I would place my writing in the hobby catigory if it weren't something I take so seriously. However, as I have yet to be paid for it, I suppose a hobby it must remain.
I have two brothers (22, and 15), and a sister (13) who mean the world to me. I am blessed in that the four of us are all very close. I'm in the statistic of those whose parents are divorced, but it doesn't bother me. They still do a lot together, so I don't feel like I'm missing anything. I am engaged and plan to be wed sometime in 2006, probably in the summer since I want a beachside wedding. It would not be wise to have one of those in the fall in Michigan!
-Picture Poetry-
+ Niku-chan: A lil piece I did for Kyla. Original pic by Peeping P!
+ Letting You Go: In memory of my kitty... Brushes by Annika Von Holdt
+ Lay of the Trees: A LotR ballad I wrote. Brushes by Annika Von Holdt
+ The Battle of the Pelennor Fields: A LotR ballad about the battle before Minas Tirith in RotK.
+ For Vanile: A poem I wrote for a DA friend, Vanile, to help him cheer up. Image NOT by me, but by, Stephine Pu Mun Law.
-Poetry-
Brushes by Annika Von Holdt
+ Aftermath
+ A Long Walk
+ Before Drowning
+ Imitating Awake
+ A Love Less Ordinary
+ Nothing More than Stars
+ Paper Thin Immortal
+ Take Me
+ The Silent War
KoRn , Evanescence, Ambeon, Static X, Linkin Park, Lacuna Coil, Within Temptation, VNV Nation, The Killers, DJ Mystic , Delerium , Faithless , L'Ame Immortalle, Muse, Breaking Benjamin, Jem
-Movies-
Lord of the Rings, Pirate s of the Caribbean, Underworld, Queen of the Damned, Edward Scissorhands, Labyrinth, Legend, Hellboy, Harry Potter, The Chronicales of Riddick, Hero, House of Flying Daggers, The Fifth Element, Sin City
-Anime-
Beck, Get Backers, Chrno Crusade, Vampire Hunter D, X/ 1999, Naruto, Shaman King, Trigun, Cowboy Bebop, Bleach, Record of Lodoss War, Macross Plus
-Books-
Lord of the Rings, A Game of Thrones, Dragon Prince, Some Place to be Flying, The Deepest Sea, Harry Potter, Dune, The Dreaming Tree, The Chronicales of Narnia
-Games-
Final Fantasy VII and VIII, Onimusha, Tekken 3, Soul Blade, Settlers of Catan, D&D, Final Haven, Fate
Image by: Kyla Sturgeon
Brushes by: Annika Von Holdt
Code and Layout by: Me
As you can see, this stunning image is one by the lovely and insanely talented Kyla, my darling best friend. While visiting her in Montreal, we were looking through some of her unfinished works. I saw this one and instently fell completely in love with it. After some begging, I got her to let me have it to use in the layout you see now.
The subject for this layout is, obviously, masks. We all ware them in one way or another, even if we don't want to admit it. I am, of course, no exception. I like to think that in this journal I am pretty honest, both with myself and those who might be reading. Just like in real life, there are some entries here that not everyone can see... layers to my life like the masks we all ware. Some of you can see beyond them all, all the masks and all the layers, and into the heart of the person I am. You see beyond all the things I hide, and I love you for it. So, this layout is about seeing the truth beyond all masks, or at least the search for it, anyway.